She comes in the night, in a dream, to tell of her passing. She is
a woman not nearly old enough with a disease that has robbed her of
everything. In this final grasp at fleeting life, she appears to the
one she loves, saying good-bye in the night realm, now that she has
no earthly voice of her own. Its time. Hes coming for me, she says, a serene
smile on her wrinkled face, eyes shining brightly with excitement. I
know youll miss me. I will... The words break the silence of a sleeping mind,
a mind that has no will to wake, knowing these are the last moments
with her. Why now? Hes been waiting for me, and now he says its time,
Sweetie. Your Grandpa has been a patient man, but now hes telling
me its time. My brother is there waiting for me, too, and its
been so long since Ive seen him. There is an almost euphoric
ring to her voice then. Shes leaving and cant seem to wait,
but there is more to show. And her image becomes hazy and transparent,
the effect lasting only a moment. Shes in church, in the vestibule, arranging Easter Lilies in
a blue vase. Her hands are moving slow and gracefully. Its then,
just as the last lily is dropped into the vase, that her eyes go over
her shoulder to the service taking place. Its her service, her
funeral, and there, in front of the pulpit, is her casket. The Lord is my Shepherd... rings out through the church
and she turns as if the words are a bell tolling just for her. She slowly
fades as she nears her shell of a body, and she is no longer in the
church, no longer attending a sermon just for her. The service station near her house is the landscape now, and she is
silent; shes waiting. Time has no meaning here; what seems like
an hour is only a second, and what seems like a second can last hours.
Its painful watching her wait, her eager stare narrowed on the
long ribbon of road ahead. Then hes there, topping the hill in
their car, the old yellow Ford. He turns into the station and greets
her with a beaming smile, a smile filled with eons of love. I love you, echoes through a slumbering mind as the dream
world cascades away. Shes gone now, with a final loving and compassionate
good-bye.
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