In the summers, the constant chink-chink of blacksmiths and other metalworkers hammering away, the pitter-patter and eager shouts of children playing in the street, the murmur of old men and women conversing, the occasional grind of wheeled carts upon the cobblestone, and the impalpable but undeniable groan of people sweating, cattle grazing, and crops growing combine with the hazy sunlight of the valley to create a pleasingly languid radiance of familiarity that lends the townsfolk a feeling of safety and of vague but definite kinship with one another. The smell of meats curing sometimes hangs in the air; other times, the unmistakable aroma of cow's manure wafts into the city from the outlying fields. During the winters, which are cold but not icy, and which bring veritable mountains of snow down from the mountains, the chink-chink of the blacksmiths continues, as does the play of the children, but all else is silent. It is a time of preparation for the busy rainy spring to come, a time of rest, like night. Nights are always silent in the Valley of the Silver Star, save for the occasional wail of a lonely wolf, owl, or loon, and in the winter, the crackling of burning wood warming the little stone huts.
They were born on opposite sides of Pearthorn, and though they probably crossed paths a time or two, they never actually met each other until they were both well into adulthood. Teelia had sweated through twenty-nine summers, and Rillop thirty, when they first looked into each others' eyes and knew that they were wrong about existence, and that life did hold a greater joy than simply being, after all. They met in battle.
At supper, for instance, when visiting friends or family, he would grab his plate, and sit down cross-legged on the floor, as he always did when alone in the fields, with his back against a wall instead of against a tree, while everyone else sat together at the table. He never made small talk, and if someone else did, he did not respond to it. Conversely, if he happened to think of something he considered interesting, such as the complex and seemingly purposeful design of the thousand constellations that dotted a shepherd's sky, the philosophical underpinnings of the economic structure of Pearthorn and nearby cities, or the mating habits of sheep, he would not hesitate to mention it, and to go on and on about it while his listener yawned. He could sit silent in the company of strangers, and not be awkward, for he was always thinking about something, and was wont to forget he was not alone. He was considered stubborn, not because he ever demonstrated the indomitable will that later got him through the war and across the sea alone, but because he did things his own way, and seemed unable to change even a little bit. He had never had to consider what others thought of him, and seemed unable to, even in company. So he would sit against the walls, his plate between his knees, and talk and laugh with the others from there, and they would get used to him. Most forgave him his peculiarity because of his good qualities, this
stout, gentle, soft-spoken bear of a man, and because they had a natural
liking for him, for his friendly laugh, his guileless demeanor, and
the quiet smile he always gave when you told him something about yourself
that perhaps you were a little embarrassed to tell. He enjoyed the company
of others, for the most part, as much as they enjoyed his presence,
but he always perceived a veil between himself and them. He thought
maybe there was a veil between each of them, as well, but he could not
speak to others' perceptions. He thought often, and even spoke occasionally,
of the "breath of eternity," that intense feeling of existence,
of clarity, of freedom, that he knew in the field, tending his flock,
ruminating, listening to the soft sweet music of the river and the wind
and of the flute that floated to him across the fields many a late evening
in the valley. There was a greater existence, he had decided, perhaps
not after you died, as some cults believed, but somewhere, within you,
behind you, somewhere, an eternity, that you couldn't quite perceive
in total, but could feel brushing up against you like a soft wind, like
breath and around the others, even his closest friends, his perception
of this eternity faded, as the veil, the mist, went up between him and
them. He accepted his solitude as a fact of his life, accepted and was
content to tread the length of his days enjoying simply being alive.
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